
It has been a couple of days since I received the message via MeWe, that my very sweet friend passed away. It was a big blow to my heart. She had been fighting something like leukemia in months passed, and I had put out a prayer request for her. She improved, went to rehab to gain strength, and then home. That was the last communication I had
for a while. I moved and schedules were crazy for us. But, I hadn’t heard anything negative about her health and so I just kept praying for her healing. So when I received this message from her son, I was shocked to get this news. It once again reminds me that I should never put off those “feelings” like I should make a phone call, send a message more often, or write an email. I had sent messages, but they didn’t receive them because with everything going on, they weren’t staying in touch. She passed away May 31st, and her son just sent me the message last week.
So, I know for me the process of healing begins with putting my thoughts on paper, so to speak. I am in hopes that some of what I share will touch your hearts as well, and encourage you in friendship and act of staying connected.
Our relationship started with a sister school program that her home town high school started with the high school I was working at during this time. I was coordinating home stays for a local program, and I was very excited about students having an opportunity to learn directly by interaction with Japanese students, and also by visiting Japan and learning about the culture for themselves. So when the school was looking for a sister school, I approached our principal about getting involved. He was in agreement of the idea and a relationship began. When we took our first group of student to their school, I was the coordinator for the program and led the home stay in Japan. My friend Shizu, was my host family. And so…begins a deep abiding relationship between Shizu and I. I believe the first year we took students to Japan was in 1993. We had accepted their students a few times prior to this trip.
However, Shizu spoke no English. Although as is common, they can usually make themselves understood, but they don’t like using the English because they might say it wrong. I relate. I didn’t speak much Japanese, although, I had been studying on my own for about a year. I spent many special meetings teaching the students basic Japanese language and culture. I could speak basic polite statements and daily living conversation. But to have a conversation, talk with our hearts, I was concerned and wished so much I knew more of the language. But this taught me the most valuable experience of my life…we can communicate with our hearts whether we know the language or not. Shizu and I communicated late into the night each night. Do you know how we did it? A dictionary! She had hers, I had mine. I about wore one brand new dictionary out the first time I was there, and later, while I stayed at her house various times, it got more of a workout. We laughed, told jokes, learned about each others’ lives. We became best friends.
The first stay was so awesome! I cried all the way to America I think when we left. I was asked at that time, to stay and teach English. I would have loved to have done that, but this was not the time to do that with small children. One of the students who went on the homestay felt the same about her experience on the trip. I was to be the adult and comfort her. We comforted each other through our tears of sadness that day on the plane as we left our friends behind. We didn’t know if we would see each other again.

I was a part of her family. I spent a lot of fun times with her son. He actually came to the states and I arranged for a great time for him while he was here. I got to meet her mother, her brother and son, and they had as many questions as she did. I met her best friends. But there again, the dictionary could speak what I was unable to speak. We understood each other. I stayed at her home several times. My middle son came with me one year, and my youngest a few years later. I took my brother one year also and he stayed with one of my exchange students during the homestay time.
Here are some special memories I have with Shizu.
- I loved a chocolate bread that her bakery in her town made. Each time I came, she had already made the purchase so I could have it for breakfast.
- l loved Japanese watermelon so it was always in the fridge when I came.
- I love Okonomiyaki, which is like a pancake batter that you add cabbage, sometimes egg, and then shrimp was what we used, and a fish base to the batter, mixed and then put it on a griddle like you would a pancake. In Japan, there are many different shops and they make them in various ways. There was one particular shop that she liked and took me there, and it quickly became my favorite. Every time I visited, we managed to get into that shop to eat.
- She included us when we came at Christmas in the giving of money, which is a tradition for kids to receive at Christmas.
- She knew things I liked, and we shopped for those things. I had some clothes she purchased for me and I wore them all out, except one blouse. I love their clothes because they are very feminine and styles we don’t see here in the U.S.
- She was concerned for me, when a student was short on money while in Japan, and I helped the student, so she gave me a gift of money so I wouldn’t be short for the trip. She wouldn’t have known except she was involved closely in the program and found it out.
- She had a great voice and I loved listening to her sing at karaoke. I loved going when I was there.
- We would talk on the phone and be patient with me as we figured out what she was saying.
- She wrote me letters in Japanese so I could practice my Japanese.
- She shared her struggles in life with me. I loved that since that isn’t really their culture to do that.
- She would teach me to cook, Didn’t even get upset with me, when for a dinner that included tempura shrimp, I thought she said don’t leave the tails on, and she really meant leave them on. She did laugh that time as she put them on the plate for guests who were coming for dinner. It was a great story over dinner that night for her too.
- I brought her some Caffe DeVita the first year and we had a mocha together. She asked for it each

time I came. - She was such a lady, and very gracious. Her hospitality was above and beyond.
She wanted to come to America, but was afraid. At my suggestion, she invited two other ladies to come with her. I picked these excited ladies up from the airport. I had the joy of my life sharing American life with her. Taking them around see so many things they had only seen in pictures. Trying different food. Shopping and more shopping. My dad was even the van driver for some of the excursions! He had a good time and they certainly enjoyed him! I loved paying back with the love and experiences now that it was I who had the ability to share with them.
One night, when I was in Japan on the first stay, she asked me what I felt to be a very deep question and she was nervous to ask. Her question? “If something happened in the world and there was another war, and they told us we couldn’t be in touch with each other, would you try to reach me anyway, or would you not have any contact?” Wow!!! There was so much behind that question. There were two other ladies visiting that night, and they eagerly waited for my answer. I think you know my answer. I told her, “That I would do whatever I could to find her and continue to be in touch with her. Her friendship meant that much to me.”
We made a new history during the time I was there. We loved deeply, took risks, and our lives were better for it. We both found that we could communicate with our hearts and understand each other. We were so much the same. A good lesson to learn and remember.
I know many of you have had the experience of loss in your life. What did or do you do to work through the process of grief? I find honoring them to be the best way for me to continue going through. What is your experience?
There were tears in the shower that morning I got the news, and there have been tears since. I believe there will be more tears as I work through this time. I will keep that little light burning for now. But one thing I know. I will never forget, my kids will never forget, and she will be forever…my best friend.
Walking the journey with you…

Have you ever had a lot to say about something, and yet you feel you don’t want to express it because you don’t want to deal with the fall out of what reactions you will get from sharing your thoughts? Nope. Me either. Hahaha!!! Yah, right!
We have gotten to the point where having social media gives us the RIGHT to express ourselves. Freedom of speech and all that. But sometimes, I am not sure if we are trying to impress someone, or if our motives for sharing are in line with how God would want us to respond. For example, you accept a position that may be in the public eye, but then what you might post on social media doesn’t really line up. That hurts the kingdom of God, as well as reaching people, more than it helps.
asks you believe it! I’m very surprised to see how much of this goes on. I think God would rather you just prayed about the situation. You want more money? Ask Him to show you how you can save more, or tighten the budget belt. You want answered prayers? Spend time talking with Him about your needs, and thanking Him for what He has done in your life. He loves to see you acting in faith, not manipulating His character. And by the way, whether you know it or not, those very types of posts ARE in fact profiling you. That is what they are designed for. Same with your quizzes you take. Not only that, they are the prime reasons you get hacked online. Be wise and discerning.
Let us not make the mistake of putting ourselves in a position where we so judge another that we miss the difference between standing strong, and voicing anything that comes in to our heads just because we can. Do you want to stand strong? Get in your prayer closets and start praying for what you don’t like, or want to see changed. THAT is where the change can happen. THAT is where you will shine for God, more than any other action. HE will make the changes that need to happen. I once worked in place that I loved, but there were many things that I wished were different. I started praying about those areas everyday for the almost two years I worked there and asking Him to change what He felt needed to be changed. I didn’t see any of the changes while I was there. But you know what? After I left, almost all of the areas I had prayed about, slowly began to happen. Later on after moving, I checked my prayer list and ALL of them came to pass. It wasn’t for me I prayed. I prayed for future employees. As it turned out, it was in His timing. Don’t give up the prayer closet! Get in there and let your requests be known to God. Plaster the walls with your requests!! THAT my friend, is just what God loves to see! Let’s humble ourselves before Him in prayer.
Today, it is my hope that this post may cause you to re-evaluate what you put out there. I also hope you will share the post with your friends. I know this is a bit strong. However, maybe we can be the change agents for God to begin to turn this around. Would you join me? Put some great things out there! Encourage and lift each other up! In place of who is bashing who, put who is doing something great for someone. Look for where good changes are happening. Do you know that your words are powerful??? If you are always putting things into words that are negative, you are sewing a breeding ground for negativity in your life. Stop it. You are sewing the wrong seeds! So…challenge on! Let’s flood our social media pages with something that will warm our hearts… and… remember to lift our eyes heaven ward. THERE, is our hope!
Welcome! Here I am today sitting at my new desk, in my new office, in our new house. I now have internet service finally, and I have been thinking about you. It has been a while since I have shared with you, and it is a joy to have a place to settle into. A place to be.
“Our tendency is to allow ourselves to be kept busy by the evil one who doesn’t want us by the still waters so that we can hear the voice of God. We don’t willingly go there in our own power; we allow other things to take over. So God has to allow purposeful circumstances in our lives to get us there. We have to allow the leading of the Holy Spirit to be led.”
Do you remember reading in scripture about running the race? Here it is:
That can preach!!! I feel the weariness in life at times. Maybe you feel a bit of fear at the things going down in the world today. It is very unnerving. But, we know the end of the book! Just as in this verse, we have to keep our eyes on the end game…we win! We are given eternal life. We will see our loved ones one day!
Is there a difference between these two words? Can we have one without the other? Transitions require some type of transformation, I think. I have found that to be true over the last several months. I have been sharing the journey of a particular storm in my life; selling our home, buying another home, and moving. One decision has led to many more decisions to be made, and it has not been a very smooth transition. I have had to ask God many times to transform my attitude to match the opportunities. But, I am inclined to think that these words kind of equal each other; Transition = Transformation. (By the way, SO glad to be back where I have internet service so I can post!!)
Last Friday, we signed papers and moved into our new house on Bel Aire. That big 18 wheeler pulled up to our new house and the three of them went to work preparing to off load our belongings. Terry unlocked the door and we walked through the door into our new house. I found myself
walking through once again, envisioning how I can make it our own. As I look around, I see all the little worts that come with a home that has a history. Some of our fun discoveries were:
That is my goal in our new home. I want to welcome transition. I want to welcome the transformation that God will make in my life if I’m willing to cooperate with His plan. I want to be flexible to move in such a way that I will always be positioned to be used of God. I also want to align myself in such a way that I am a light to those around me. God has certainly given me many gifts with this house, not only to give me enjoyment, but to be a blessing to others. Some of those gifts are:




Tonight brings us to a local Hotel in the town we are moving to. We are in the Hotel because first thing in the morning, we go into the Title Company and sign papers on our new house. Yes. House. It won’t become a home until we are in it, making our house reflect what makes our house a home.
As we drove into a city tonight, I’m thinking of our time living here from 2004-2008. I’m not the same person that I was then. God has changed me. So as we check out what we remember, I am reminded of a new beginning with who I am now. New perspective. We look around and find the place we need to go to in the morning. We get something to eat at one of our favorite pizza places. As the waitress brings me my Pepsi, it is a bit of comfort to enjoy not just a glass, but a beverage kraft filled with Pepsi along with my glass, so I don’t have to wait for a refill. We take a bite of pizza and look at each other and say, “Yep, this pizza is still really good!” So while I have left so much, there are small comforts that welcomed us to back to the area. Oh yes! And…Starbucks!!!
house, the feeling of the house, and what is comfortable where. Then, it will become our home. So tomorrow brings the final step to owning our new house. We will leave the signing office, after leaving part of our life savings on the table, and go set up our utilities. Then, we will drive up to that house on Bel Aire and begin the wonderful journey of making it ours…a place where memories can be made. God reminds me that conversations over coffee can still happen, and even though miles separate us, there are ways to stay in touch. There are new friends to meet. God has in His plans for me.
So this morning as my eyes didn’t want to open to the chaos, I thought I would check my messages on my phone. There was a text that the appraiser had finally submitted his appraisal to our lender! Today was to be the day we were to close on the new house. Now I can choose to complain that he made us have to wait another week, or I can be thankful that it is in. I choose to be thankful it is finally submitted. I won’t say I haven’t complained. Hear me out. I am saying, that God has gently reminded me not to. I will move forward one more step and believe that we can close on the third of June as planned when we signed the extension. I pray for the sellers of our new house, that they continue to be patient with us in something that was entirely not of our doing. AND…I rest in God’s promise to restore what has been taken.
Knock…knock…come on in! I have a story to tell! The other day I did a happy dance because I received a book in the mail that I was so wanting. It is all about making the Scandinavian waffle; not just a waffle, but all kinds of ways to serve the waffle. I was very excited! I tasted the Norwegian waffle while on my visit to Norway. In the wonderful hospitality of my cousins, it was served like a dessert waffle with a jam and whipped cream on top and each one was heart-shaped. They were very, very good and had a touch of cardamom flavor. What a treat! I immediately wanted the recipe. I have a couple other books and recipes, and now, I have this book. I have learned the history of waffles also. And the recipes!! That is really fun!However, there was a word in this book that really grabbed my heart. My soul immediately resonated with it. I have been familiar with its feeling, and always leaned this way in my daily life and
living. But this word description put the finger on the pulse when I read it. It is described as the Norwegian word “Kos”. As with many languages, sometimes it takes many words to understand the meaning of one foreign word used, and this word is no exception. If we tried to translate it, it seems the word “cozy” would best work. Sort of…but not really. It is really described as more of a life style. It’s about the quality of life we live and making an atmosphere that totally makes you feel like, this is the life! This is what it’s about. But she talks about “Kos” not just being about the home, it’s also about getting together for coffee, or when you see someone you haven’t seen in a long time, or sharing a bonfire with snacks or hotdogs together with friends, neighbors and family. It is also about being out in nature on a walk or hike, or sitting on a deck and just enjoying what you see around you. Hearing the sounds, and breathing in life.
other cousins, to see my grandfather’s church, and where his siblings and family attended, were confirmed, and lived their life. I walked the road where my grandfather walked and then went up the hill to where his house was. I traveled with other cousins to learn of my father’s mother and her life in Norway, and my great-uncle, who was a pastor, and gave his life to ministry in Norway, and later in the US. I walked inside of the house where my great-grandmother, grandmother and her sister lived. That was on my mom’s side.
I could imagine for a while what their life was like and how hard their life was. I could also look out the window at the beautiful mountains across the valley. I stood there a moment trying to imagine them waking up to that view every day! What a view a view it was. Did they stand at the window and dream about a time when they would leave these mountains and come to the land of plenty? Did they dream about a way to make a better life for themselves and for their family by leaving Norway? Maybe they prayed for provision and food enough to get by? Maybe their prayers were answered by our presence there that day. Stories…do we know them, or are we too busy to gather around small tables by oil light to listen? (I will allow you an electrical light too, or, candles are welcomed). Can we slow down enough to hear the stories? Everyone has one.
their lunch together. They invited on in to share the circle with them. We ate our snacks there and they offered us cookies and coffee. Here we sat, strangers to them, my son and I, and yet they invited us in like they had known us for a long time. We were invited into the cabin for a tour. My heart fell in love with this cabin on the mountain. It squeezed my heart a little to leave, but I left feeling the “Kos” that day for many reasons. Walking back down the mountain, it WAS hard to put into words. But I know the feeling because my heart recognizes it.
I thank my Norwegian relatives for reminding me once again what life is about and what is important. I think God wants us to live this way. It was never His plan to be running so fast that we run away from life instead of running to it. We are running so hard that we forget to look around us at nature and what God has given us. We can’t even hear Him because we are too busy moving on to the next thing. I came back home with a reinforced perspective about this area of my life! I am passionate about it! I implement it in my home as well. I now understand why. It was how I was brought up. But it still takes ME to implement it. When we allow it, our heart and soul will speak. When it does, we have no choice but to listen and follow if we want harmony in our lives.
Today has been a double shot kind of day!! I have been reminded of the title of this post for several months now, but more particularly, in the last few months. I have to admit, I am a bit overwhelmed by the circumstances of this whole mess of selling and buying a home this time! THAT doesn’t happen often for me. But if it weren’t for some fun activity in my day today, I think more words and unkindness would definitely be swirling around our house right now. The thing is, people just don’t do what you expect them to do. When they don’t, things don’t go as planned.

