I still don’t know. We think we see the light at the end of the tunnel, but then there are the signs that tell us, no entry. We have had a hiccup in the process and we are waiting to see how big the buyers think the hiccup is. The kicker? If we have to put more money into the house to sell it, hubby wants to invest in the house for ourselves, and stay. WHAT?!?!?!???? I have packed half of the house up to do what???!!! STAY here? Oh boy! Breathe girl… breathe!
So I let this idea roll over in my heart a bit, and I tell God that He sure go through a lot of trouble to maneuver what happens, to get us where we are supposed to be. He must be exhausted trying to keep us in His will. But that may happen in the plans. It also can be that the process of selling this home is to teach us:
- What we REALLY want.
- What our focus is.
- Get some things accomplished.
- Learn to have an even deeper focus on trusting Him.
We certainly have had to do that, because it has been a ride for sure! Scripture shows me how He will always be faithful to bring me back. I have read of His faithfulness over and over again, even when I may have repeatedly abandoned what I know to be true.
Today as I opened my Bible, I turned to Psalm 116. It talks of the author’s love for the Lord, and all that the Lord has done for him. He is praising the Lord for His goodness. That was lifting to my spirit today, as well as, a gentle reminder to stay in gratitude. What refreshment to my soul! My Gratitude Jar hasn’t been growing over the last month or so. That’s not good. When I am not dropping those hearts in my jar, I can easily let other things that come my way get the best of me. Of course, that is exactly what satan wants; he wants to discourage me in every way possible. So today, I have dropped a few hearts in my jar and told God I will continue as I always do to remember (my word for the year) to always live in gratitude. Today, I am very grateful for U-Turns that we are allowed in life. Wow! What a blessing to be able to know that God will forgive me, gently lift me up and turn me back around. What a picture word that is…u-turn. I have to allow it. I have to be willing to turn back around. I am the “U” in u-turn. I can either keep struggling, or surrender and let Him do what He needs to do in me.
So today, I send out my message to you to encourage you to let God allow u-turns in your life. Maybe you have never even considered that God WOULD
allow a u-turn. You may be carrying around a huge amount of guilt from your past. Don’t be a martyr and carry that heavy load around. Unload it at the cross. Surrender it. We just experienced Easter and that is what Easter is all about. He doesn’t want you to have to live under the burden. Let Him pick you up, clean you off, set you down in the opposite direction, and walk the rest of the way with you. It is what He desires. You have the decision to make. I would love to walk up to the window of my life and look in to see what He has in store for me. But I can’t. However, He sees the end from the beginning and He will eventually help me see clearly through the window with out cracks, or brokenness.
I turned around once again today. I did allow Him to work in my life. He immediately encouraged me through His words in the Psalm. Do you know what? Even though I had some good plans and reasons for the change we felt God was leading us in, maybe, just maybe, God can make all those changes right here where we are. I will wait on Him, and I am asking Him to help me see with more of His perspective and vision. It’s like walking out from the darkness and into the light. Don’t wait. Talk to Him about it.
Walking the journey with you..